The Strength Grown from Pain: My Tantra Journey
A Message for Those Who Are Still Anxious, Uneasy, or Lost Due to Past Trauma.
Dear one, if you are also facing inner tension, anxiety, or fear, or feeling isolated and helpless due to past trauma, I want to share with you a small step I took—a deep journey of immersing myself in every moment of experience. This was my first time stepping onto the path of Tantra, participating in a "Goddess Ultimate Sensory + Meditation" experience, in an attempt to rebuild my connection with myself and the world.
To be honest, I don't fully understand the essence of Tantra, nor do I fully understand myself. But this experience allowed me to feel the unique beauty of every carefully designed space, giving me the opportunity to reclaim fragments of my lost self. During my first appointment, after waiting for so long, my heart was filled with anxiety and vulnerability, afraid of my own loss. However, every detail in this environment—artworks, books, scented petals, every inch of space design—made me feel that unique and thoughtful beauty. It was a sanctuary where one could let down their guard and quietly settle.
This Tantra experience marked the beginning of my exploration and healing of the self—not just a relaxation of the body, but a deep healing of the soul. In this safe and respectful environment, I learned to reconnect with my body, feeling every touch on my skin and every breath. From the initial mini-consultation to warming up with Tantra tea, and then to each sensory experience, the teachers’ careful guidance gradually opened my heart, helping me to process past trauma and learn how to connect with love and respect.
During the meditation and sensory experiences, I learned to breathe again and to feel my body. Whether it was gentle touch or deep oil massage, it was all about respect and release for both body and mind. Despite my past fears of sexual experiences, here, I gradually opened up, accepting everything as a way of self-healing.
Perhaps, like me, you have complex emotions about sexuality and have endured painful experiences. But I want to tell you, this experience is not just about sex; it’s about rebuilding your relationship with yourself, rediscovering the beauty in life, and realizing your value as a person, giving you strength to move forward. If you’re also seeking inner peace and want to find strength from trauma, you too can give it a try. Each person’s understanding will differ based on the depth and resilience of their life.
I also want to thank JoJo for the introduction, Kuma, the housekeeper sister for leading the dynamic meditation, and for the care during my stay, such as breakfast preparation and the housekeeper brother who helped shield me from the rain with an umbrella. Thanks to the management for maintaining a well-managed environment. Although my learning and memory abilities have declined (I have some trouble remembering names), I admire the teachers for staying alert for such a long time, maintaining gentle yet firm touch, which requires patience and care. I also thank myself for the courage to try new things again, and I look forward to seeing the world become more harmonious, little by little, because of you.
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